May the force be with me

I have no word over this mindset
Feelings, if there is any
I either spent enough time harping over it that i'm over it
Or did the moment I decide to let go, work?
I think I fear reconciling and finding out we have nothing in common more than not reconciling at all
But it's not really a fear cause who knows what would happen
Just know that as of now, as much as I will always care for you,
My heart is not beating your name
We'll both be free and we'll be okay
At least I will be

My heart

Why does my heart hurt
Is it unmet expectations?
Do I even expect anything from you?
Is it disappointment,
That I would've done anything for you but you're just not ready for me?
Is it confusion,
As to how one person can keep pining over someone who constantly pushes the other away
Is it questioning how I can be so patient giving you chances you didn't ask for and being sad you don't seize it anyway
Is it wishful thinking,
That you'd take care of my heart just a bit more?

Give me the truth

I would want to know if I cross your mind,
If I made you smile or sad,
Angry, betrayed or confused
People have made me feel things but on the contrary, I cannot imagine how my actions can affect others
Give you sleepless nights,
Dreamy afternoons
I would want to know if your heart beats my name
Because I never knew if that is a thing

Heart

A heart doesn't have to be stoic to be strong,
No need for it to be tough like a stone,
Enough for it to beat and continue beating,
Ache and break and still beating,
Enough for it to be vulnerable to danger without a single thought of defense
A heart does not need strength to be strong
It just needs to be

Could it be

We feel each other so well
Could it be that sometimes our emotions don't match
Are we depriving ourselves or am I overthinking-
Overfeeling rather
But for people so similar,
We feel so different

Heartbreak girl

Bringing it upon herself
Stooping down to the wrong ones
Unavailable,
Yet the heart refuses to back down
Logic loses in the futile battle
She'll learn every time she gets hurt
She'll learn by herself and she does all the time
Sighing as the shadows of a dream fades away
Every
Single
Time
The only thing that's never failed