Who are you, sweetheart?

I've never felt hurt so sweet
Pain so addictive
Something so out of reach I can't be bothered to try but I wish for it anyway
Who are you in my dreams,
So sweet and honest,
I fell in love fastest
You radiate so much love I cannot explain
We just met but your eyes tells me so much
You refuse to own me but you care for me in ways no boys have (my dad is a man)
You saved me time and again but you won't hold my hand (or did you? I can't tell anymore)
You made me feel so right
We felt so right
I can't even write about you because you were perfect for me
I don't know how to release these emotions except hope you visit my dreams again
You probably don't even exist
But I hope I just haven't met you yet
I'm in love with someone who I made up in my head-
And not even consciously