Sad smiles

While I don't have a favourite photo of myself, I have a least favourite
It was on my birthday celebration one year and the cake was pink
And I hate it not only because the cake was pink
What struck me was how sad my eyes looked
And then I realised the timeframe of when the photo was taken
I liked to say I was a happy person and that was a great year
Even in my memories is was a great year
But I guess the eyes don't lie
I wish to never be that sad again

Who are you, sweetheart?

I've never felt hurt so sweet
Pain so addictive
Something so out of reach I can't be bothered to try but I wish for it anyway
Who are you in my dreams,
So sweet and honest,
I fell in love fastest
You radiate so much love I cannot explain
We just met but your eyes tells me so much
You refuse to own me but you care for me in ways no boys have (my dad is a man)
You saved me time and again but you won't hold my hand (or did you? I can't tell anymore)
You made me feel so right
We felt so right
I can't even write about you because you were perfect for me
I don't know how to release these emotions except hope you visit my dreams again
You probably don't even exist
But I hope I just haven't met you yet
I'm in love with someone who I made up in my head-
And not even consciously

Yours sincerely

Many a times I have put time, soul and heart into people who does not appreciate it, much less reciprocate it
Is it their fault?
Not really
Is it mine?
Definitely not
Softness of the heart is never a mistake, if anyone is at loss it's never us
But time and again I lost the intensity of love for people who don't even want to receive it
Definitely, totally,
Your loss