In the long run

I can not find it in me to imagine hurting someone
I'm so glad I got hurt early in life- it makes me realise that i'd rather take the blow than let someone else feel the hurt, especially if it is unnecessary and if i'm in control.

You trusted me with your feelings and I cannot betray you the way i've been betrayed
True matters of the heart can't be forced but I am the deciding factor for your hurt.
It would blow less if it wasn't me.

And you trusted me around your love.
I cannot play with him the way he plays with you.
The thought sickens me to the core and you deserve the best.

Most of all,
I hope this is all in my head because that way,
I'm back to the usual.
I'm back to the only one being hurt is me.
Because I think I know how to handle heartbreaks.