How could I expect her to be there when I made it clear from the start that I don't need her?
How could I blame her for not being a good friend when I Declared myself as low maintanence?
How could this happen twice in my life?
Seeing your muse get into a relationship?
Babyshark, and now Gyro.
It could happen again, it could happen everytime I find interest in someone.
It could keep going.
But how could I complain while I keep on praying to be distanced from those wrong for me?
How could I ask for the best and wish for the best to be my best?
How could I harbour hope again?
In Koala when simple distractions pulled me away from him so easily?
When I wrote about letting him go because we were too different, when it was convenient and I had options?
How could I wait for more coincidences to happen before deciding to hope again?
Is it possible that in liking my muse, the other girls too did not have intentions to hurt?
No intentions to fall for the same guy I fell for.
No wrongdoings too; I myself said "Why would I be mad, he's not even mine."
Because I know when my heart fell for a commoner, I truly feel guilty but I find myself pushing that away sometimes because "It's not like i'm doing anything, I just enjoy his company" failing to realise that from the eyes of an admirer, it's exactly what would hurt
Seeking constant self reflection.
May what we think reflect what we feel.
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