You are not

Normal crushes are ok,
I know how to handle them
But you dearest
You are not normal.

You are my friend first and foremost,
All these while my crushes are people I rarely speak to
But a day without speaking to you I feel empty inside.

You are undeclared,
Noone knows if your heart is taken,
And by who, even,
You always say no,
You are not a lover.

You share your stories that I love to hear,
And I have no idea if I should reciprocrate.
Because
You are not my best friend.

I admire you still, though.
You are special.
Kind heart and bright smiles,
You fill my days with understanding and heart races.

You feel nothing but I feel everything.
You are not at fault.