I learnt to make the toilet my safe spot, the place i'd run to after class to avoid people from realising how lonely I was.
I learnt to make mirrors company- reflections companion and empty spaces full of love.
I learnt to speak to my phone and reply for myself.
I learnt to starve and thirst.
I learnt to pick up social anxieties i've never once had.
And noone knows.
This is dumb, honestly coming from a person who actually likes being alone.
I can't help but feel... abandoned despite never belonging in the first place.
It's not like I did not try and change a thing; god knows I tried.
I have to find a place I belong- I cant continue being alone.
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