This losing of heart is bittersweet

Im tethering right in between letting go and holding on

My grip on you is loosening

If you give me a shove,

Maybe finally,

Your wishes of getting rid of me would be fulfilled

a weird thought on my end

It is a weird thought

That you have an entire life of your own

That I have remembered you five times longer than I have known you

That I still think about you when I probably have been a lost memory for many years now

It's so weird if ever 

You find out that I still write about you 

Like an echo in an empty canyon- who knew how long and how strong and how loud the first beat was

It's still pulsating for the one person still standing there

Oh? 

This girl that I forgot existed

Still thinks of me from time to time?