I can see the last straws from here

Just not sure if it's on mine or your side

Keep pushing me, 

Perhaps I am capable of breaking away from you 

Sooner than I think

After all that's said and felt,

My hope is I did okay

Brought some joy and light even if the smallest bit

I can say I tried

I'll keep trying as long as you let me

My heart has hurt the past two hours

How is that even possible

Sometimes I accept it for what it is

But sometimes I see it as cruel

Sometimes necessary,

Oftentimes cruel

This losing of heart is bittersweet

Im tethering right in between letting go and holding on

My grip on you is loosening

If you give me a shove,

Maybe finally,

Your wishes of getting rid of me would be fulfilled

a weird thought on my end

It is a weird thought

That you have an entire life of your own

That I have remembered you five times longer than I have known you

That I still think about you when I probably have been a lost memory for many years now

It's so weird if ever 

You find out that I still write about you 

Like an echo in an empty canyon- who knew how long and how strong and how loud the first beat was

It's still pulsating for the one person still standing there

Oh? 

This girl that I forgot existed

Still thinks of me from time to time?