I know it hasn't been easy,

Getting rid of me.

But you could at least be assured that once you do,

It'd be for real. 

In my head I can't hide

But in this universe,

I'm trying to be okay without the love you never felt for me

-medhaawrites

Maybe one day 

Someone, anyone

Will finally mean the words they say

Or at least try to,

Like I try to

To be reminded that i'm not loved 

Is a painful,

But good reminder

adeu february

February is a grave,
Of unvisited memories and untouched treasures
Heart fluttering and gut wrenching
All in the short 28 days,
And oftentimes the long 29.
February is not a month for smiling

Heart of blank

Tonight I want to acknowledge my heart

How unnecessarily strong you've been

The way you push against any forces wanting to shatter your thoughtfulness,

The way my ego could never win against you 

The way you feel every emotions and always let go of the hurt sincerely 

The way you instinctually seek out the good in people even when it's not easy

Today I thank you,

I don't know what hearts are made of

I dont know if you were gifted to me wholly by the universe or you came as a blank slate I had to fill in

Perhaps it's a bit of both- you were given to me equipped with your own personality but I choose what happens to you

Is that it, is a heart its own life like we are our own?

Either way, 

Tonight im writing to appreciate you

Least I can do is act the way you would act

Give in, be thoughtful, never prideful.

And honestly, i'd never had appreciated you until I realise how different everyone's hearts are

This is probably why we say "Sampai hati" when someone does something bad- "how could your heart bear to, (because mine would never)"

And why we say "Bless your heart" when someone is kind; because mine didn't tell me to do what you just did

Im rambling. It's 2am

Im just thankful for my heart- probably the only muscle in my body working hard hahaha