Can't remember the last time you asked How I am
Somehow that hurts the most
Getting reminded that you no longer care
But like you said,
I should learn to be ok with it

I apologize oh Lord for keeping this hurt so close to my heart
If I had a slither of choice to remove it with my own power,
Please show it to me
If all I can do is wait,
Grant me patience
Dry my tears just a while more
Hold my heart tighter so it feels less

I miss you and i'll just keep saying it to myself until the feeling goes away

Feels like a child at a playground
Whom noone wants to befriend
And I want to go home
But I can't find my way back

And even if I eventually do
I'll only hear them say "it's not you"
If it's not me,
What is it?

Sometimes I want to wish your life feels the slightest bit duller without me
But alas,
My thoughts begin and end with wishing you are happy

Nights like these I can do nothing but beg Him to stop my heart from yearning, and wanting, and missing,
And hurting

Tonight I realise i've been so burdensome in your life
If I truly loved you i'd have left ages ago
Maybe it's not too late to prove it one more time