When neither overrules another

My logic is genuinely perplexed over my actions
My heart is just enjoying the waves of destruction, the inconsistent crests when you please and troughs when you don't
But inconsistency is the best part
But inconsistency sucks
Weirdest of all, we're not inconsistent at all

If

If my best is not enough,
It's not not enough
I'm putting in love and effort in the wrong avenue