Written by my bestfriend

You break the fish barrier

I've known two pisces in my life.
Both of them made my life miserable and was only good to me infront, and not the back.
So everytime I read their horoscopes and see so many positive things I can't help but scoff.
Have these astronomers actually known any pisces???
7 years down the road I met one more pisces.
I find it hard to believe that i'm looking up pisces traits after those two idiots.
And this time round,
He's everything the horoscope says and more.

Another compliment, please?

I've never thoroughly enjoyed being called pretty.
To me looks is the last thing that should matter.
I hold the galaxy inside of me and I shouldn't be judged just by a planet.
But nights like these as I witness these ladies flaunting all they got-
In addition to the drought of acknowledgement-
Makes me feel a bit down.

Compliments are just the cherries on top.
The cake tastes amazing with or without it.

Progression, regression

2 weeks ago,
Slowly but steadily.
Rearview mirror,
Among all the green green fields and the orange orange skies, all I saw are two hazel spheres looking blankly back at me.

8 days ago,
Slowly but steadily.
Side mirror,
Right or left, liking you felt right.
But all that I get is I get left.

2 days ago,
Falling into regression.
Any feelings I had had gone.
Fading slower than lights disappearing from the horizon.
So it really is just a silly crush.
Meh.

We think we know better

As adults we think kids cry over the stupidest things;
Balloon that flew away,
Literal spilt milk,
A fixable broken toy.

But little did they know that they cry over stupider things;
Missing someone when the solution is to simply call and say hi,
Losing a friend when it is better for them,
Being directed to something better but too bratty to accept the changes.

Kids are ultimate.
I wished I could stay a kid beyond forever because it's a lot more lively.
And that's what I want my life to be, lively.

Patience

Patience.
Patience.
Kesabaran.
Sabar itu selalu indah.
Sabar mengelakkan masalah.
Sabar membantu kami menangani masalah.
Sabar separuh daripada iman.
Patience is the best gift we can give ourselves and others around us.
I promise.

Move

Aeroplanes, Boats, Trains, even hoverboards and rollerblades; eases our journeys and helps us move faster and more conveniently.

But that cannot be why we have forgotten how to walk together as brothers and sisters, holding hands and hearts in the most figurative sense.

You reading this, I appreciate your existance and I hope you have a blessed day ahead.

Inspired by M.L.K

How can we mere creatures learn how to fly so high,
Even reaching places beyond the telescopes can see, than the mind can comprehend,
Even landing on faraway moons and planets.

How can we mere mortals learn to dive so deep within the vast oceans,
Going lower than the greatest inventions on earth, than the inhabitants of the seabeds,
Even reading things beneath the lowest points.

How can we not then, as humans with brains and hearts learn how to walk together as brothers and sisters,
To show compassion and kindness and to act like a community does.

How come we reach for the stars yet not keep a firm hold on the ground?
Do we not learn from balloons, and how they explode upon going further up into the atmosphere?
Because we have to understand one thing; what we think are advancements and progress, actually contributes to our regression.

Have a heart.

Distance

Weird how this galaxy between us makes me feel closest to you.
But when you're right in front of my eyes you feel so out of reach.

Distance really is a weird concept
And I don't wish to ever grasp it
I'd rather live in ignorance than accept that the space between us will never get any closer

When the day comes

When the day comes and princess charming sweeps you off your feet,
My feet will shuffle too, but far away from you.
When the hour comes and your heart has fallen into the right hands,
I'll fall too but into a neverending trap of maze.
When the minute comes and you pick the flower most attractive to your heart,
I'll be the leaf that though overlooked, will still yearn your touch.
When the second comes and i'll lose you,
I'll lose myself too, for I am beyond obsessed with the idea of you.

The best and worst part

The worst part, is that you don't realise your worth.

You think i'm made for you when in reality, you're the sunlight seeping through the leaves of the forest while i'm just the tree.
You're the sunlight whose light attempts to light the whole soil while i'm the tree which inevitably blocks you from them, while selfishly absorbing all of you in my system.
You're the sunlight whose heat warms the needy while i'm the tree that dies with your touch.
I thought you were the only thing I needed until I realise; I can't grow with your presence alone.

You think i'm suited for you when in reality, you are worth so much more.
I'm like a rock that scars your fine pressed carbon.
I'm the blade that imprints your delicate skin.
I'm like the hoe that unevens your fine ground.
I'm the bullet that shatters your glass shields.

The best part, is that you don't realise your worth.
Because that's the only way I can ever own you.

Perumpamaan

I learn that you're a rarity
Put in the black market in front of a hundred thieves
I learn that i'm just one of them
But worse, i'm not even in the first hundred
I learn that i'm in this neverending queue
A queue which ends with nothing from you.

I learn that it's not wrong to admire
As long as expectations do not follow

I learn that you are an exhibit in a museum,
I can read and analyze as long as I want,
And take as many pictures and videos as I want,
But I can never cross that glass panel,
And I can never touch your hands.

I learn that you're the wax figure,
For although you will never change,
You change me.
(And everyone else who sets eyes on you)

The magnet in me

All my life i've seen boys
Coming up to my friends
Asking for their names, numbers
Anything that could spark a friendship

The shy ones would send their friends,
Actual people
People we actually know
As representatives of his attraction for her

All my life i've stood on the sidelines
I witnessed all these
I learnt from their mistakes and for that i'm eternally grateful

And once or thrice a boy will come up to me
But these boys I know not
These boys wants flings
Something that will not benefit either of us and that I do not want
But these are the only energies I seem to attract

Hey magnet in me, you ok buddy?

Denying fate

How long more
Am i gonna hold onto
Coincidences after
Coincidences

How much more
Must the universe show
To assure me that nothing
Could go wrong

I made a thousand bets
But none of them i won
Even though it was accurate
Boy, I feel so so wrong

I let the universe lead the way
And show me the signs to you
But right as it gets clear as day
I purposely steer away from you

Is this cowardice or unpreparedness
Can you afford to wait for me
Because if you leave I have nothing to blame
Not fate,
Not even me.

Maaf, tiada penyesalan

Maafkan daku jikalau engkau gagal untuk lena,
Salahkan dirimu kerana terlalu sempurna-
Sehingga aku tak dapat pejamkan mata.
Salahkan dirimu kerna sesungguhnya,
Perasaan ini tak pernah kupinta.

Jikalau jodoh bertemu lagi,
Pasti tak keruan hati ini,
Akanku cuba mengalihkan pandangan,
Lebihku rela berdiri keseorangan.
Tapi jangan engkau berani,
Untuk melangkah pergi.

Tunggulah disini.
Walaupun kau tak menjadi milikku,
Biarlah ku nikmati-
Keperibadianmu yang murni.
Hatimu yang suci.
Kasihku yang hakiki.

Sememangnya lama sudah hatiku mati,
Berhenti berfungsi atas nama kasih,
Namun dengan kehadiranmu ini,
Sungguh tak sangka,
Membawa erti.

Memang kau tak berbuat apa,
Cuma aku yang terlebih rasa.
Disini aku hanya mampu berdoa,
Agar kita bertemu semula.

Tapi ia seperti anani,
Engkau layak mendapatkan yang lebih sempurna,
Ku tetap genggam erat perasaan ini,
Akan ku kunci dan lontar ke dasar.

Jangan kau risau, jangan kau bimbang.
Perasaan ini tak perlu ditimbang.
Dan ku harap pabila mata bertentang,
Semua perasaan ini akan
Hilang.